HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

Keep wanting to stop my party-life

but it seem so impossible for me to do it

met alot of new friends recently while party-inggggggg ^^

I am so grateful that there's so much people around me

love & dote me well.

Thanks & appreciated.

Withloveeeeees.

2 more days to school start

kinda excited, but unprepared. :|

What if one day I were to confess with you

will you accept me?!

PS: I want you. ♥

It's been half a year, ever since we have put a full-stop to this affair

days ago .. You happened to pop-out with this topic

Are you a flirt / bastard ?!

Well, why can't you just skip this question?

once again, it's remind me all that good & bad memories we once had tgt

Thank you for truly loved me once before

Appreciated, Sincerely!

对，我就是自欺欺人，我就是不想面对现实。

我犯奸，我活该，我自找伤害。

明知是错的选择还一头摘进去
但那又如何？至少我曾经努力过。

Party life gonna be a full-stop to me real real soon ..

& Welcome to my study life ! (:

It's time to say goodbye to my freedom

& I know I gonna be really stress next year, but what to do? This is life ..

RJ. Sorry, I know sorry can't turn back time

I really did like you once .. But maybe we just don't mean to be tgt .

I'm sorry, other than sorry this word, I don't know what can I say to you anymore.

Out of the blue, I'm back to blog.

Dead-Blog As Usual ==

Party life is never a full-stop to me!

I kinda miss my schooling life man! GOSH.

Head to Kaplan previously, still wandering when should I enroll my course

April or Aug?!

Shall see how it's go again then

Can't wait for Nov to reach !!

Genting .. THE FIRST TRIP THROUGHOUT MY WHOLE LIFE?!

Am so excited can?!

& Of course, lastly I love you Sweetheart! <3

PS: Koji.

A dead blog as usual

I keep thought to myself

Yes, you did once serious with me

but, indeed all those words that came through your mouth doesn't seem so

If you think that playing with my feeling is an entertainment towards you

Well, I'll stand still & let you play til you find it bored & left

# Just less than 1 month, & I'm back to club

didn't really did enjoy last night, due to my gastric pain

but still .. It's still a happening night ! <3

Would it be out of the line if I tell you, I miss you?

27th Of March 2011

The first conversation that bring you into my life

We exchange-d number & our story started from ..

20th Of April 2011

Our first date at Amk Hub ; Movie BKO , 7:35PM Show :D

After movie he send me home (:

22nd Of April 2011

The day I started to felt the care & concern from you to me

25th Of April 2011

The day I practice to baked egg tarts just for you

26th Of April 2011

The day you say you miss me

27th Of April 2011

The day you ask me, {{ To be honest, do I have feeling for you? }}

I asked you back the same question

& that's the answer you replied :

{{ I like you cause of your heart. You really go and make the egg tart even thought you don't know how to make, & you learn & make out the best for me. I am really touch }}

I ask you back , so you like me ?

You replied : I cannot say

You said you're different from other guy, you said you won't anyhow say I like or I love

You said you will tell me when your hearts goes

Cause .. {{ You know I know }}

& You tell me , feeling cannot be say out one

29th Of April 2011

The day you say you care for me, & don't allowed me to go drink!

& wanted me to eat regularly

1st Of May 2011

Our 2nd date, @ Plaza Sing , Movie @ the Cathay {{ Dealthbell 2 }}

The first time you call me {{ Dearest <3 }}

The first time you kiss & hug me <3

3rd Of May 2011

The first time you say {{ I love you }} to me (:

You'll be the guy to be there for me to talk all my emotion out

You will be my listening ear & let me have a comfortable sit with you around

You said , I'm a angel in your eyes

& you tell me 爱就是不爱；不爱就是爱

asked me to find out myself

4th Of May 2011

The day you define your love towards me <3

You said {{ My love for you is not like drama like that, love you till the sea dry etc .. I love you because I love you & because I am happy when I'm with you. & love is being with the person you're most comfortable with :)

& yet you tell me that {{ I think I don't want to be so selfish already, If you can find a guy that can treat me good & not us you say play with your feeling, got to tell me, you will always be there to support you

5th Of May 2011

3rd date @ Amk Hub ; Movie {{ Fast Five , 1.15PM Show }}

You accompany trained back to Tpy.

7th Of May 2011

Out of a sudden you came all the way down to Tpy just to meet me for dinner (:

& cause of me you run away from the dinner of your that "childhood girlfriend"

9th Of May 2011

The day you tell me {{ I don't love you from the bottom of your heart, I love you from the top to the bottom & your heart .

I cannot stay always cause sometime I will be busy, & some more I going in army, how to always stay at your side, but my soul will be always be by your side, protecting you!

10th May 2011

Our trip for dinner ..

The day you asked me to be your girlfriend {{ Face to face }}

Due to some reason of yours, I didn't answered

& you tell me, either I close one eye, or you let go

Indeed, I choose to close one eye & to be with you ! <3

& our love story started ..

& you send me a text say ..

Will you be my girlfriend? I will take care of you for the rest of my life. I will make you feel secure by me. No one will come & bully you! I promise you that you will be happy with me, & won't have your miserable life keep on thinking ..

& due to some problem , we quarrel in the night ..

you told me , guess we can't manage to be together ; this hurts me load

end up, you say you can't bare to give up on me

so .. we being together at this moment

{{ 10May2011 ; 10PM }}

11 May 2011

Mid 12 ; You wish me a Happy Birthday with a super long text ..

Happy birthday my dearest bby! I hope I am the first one who wish you. Or maybe not ba. Anyway do take care while I go oversea. Will be back on Monday midnight. I go Hongkong shop shop, if see anything nice I buy for you as your birthday present okay, enjoy your clubbing! Hng! Do not betray me! If not I won't forgive you, don't drink so much! Do go home early, rest!

Love you lost from your dearest bby! <3

18th Of May 2011

You bought food to my place for me to eat, & forced me to take my cough medicine

You bring me to Mount Faber & Labrador Park

The first time you carry me up on your shoulder

You bought me a beat monster tour ear piece & I bought you one Fred Perry wallet

& a couple mickey mouse key chain (:

22nd Of May 2011

You bring me to Marnia Barrage!

It's such a romantic night with you around <3

24th Of May 2011

You put a full stop on this chapter of story ..

You say to me {{ You won't mind, I mind! I won't want you to get hurt forever .. I don't want you to give in for me. You are not a failure! You're a good girl, but I can't see you like this forever.

I would rather leave you now than you get hurt forever. You will find a better guy, and I don't want you to close one eye cause of me .. If you want we be a best friend & not a boyfriend relationship. I am sorry that I hurt you now, but is I think is worth leaving you now than later.

You said I am too good to me hurt ):

27th Of May 2011

Out of the blue you send me a text say {{ SORRY }}

& asked me to go hear the song from {{ Anthony Neely ; Sorry That I Love You }}

That express your feeling towards me now ):

29th Of May 2011

I ain't letting go .. Head to your work place to find you

Bought you foods & stuff ..

But after all , I know it's time for me to go ..

PS: I am missing you ! ):

No words could explain how much I hate you, but no hatred could replace the way I love you!

Tons of thing happen recently

Well, I seriously don't know what's going on nowadays!

Relationship, Family, Friendship problems .. Tons & tons of problem

coming one after another !

Somehow he called me today, I don't know how I feel now

Sad? Angry? Happy? I don't know.

So yeah! Shall put this aside (:

Something happen yesterday again!

Love fell down while helping Chloe to bathe

Due to this

Fights & all within my family due to over paranoid

Well, thing settle

Seriously, I hate you so much, I don't think you're a suitable daddy to me after all

Since I'm young you already like this, now no changed !

You can say my attitude wasn't good, either same go to you?

Well, I can say, my attitude is far more better than you !

I talked nicely to you, you're the one who throw all the vulgarity towards me

some more wanted to use violence towards me

If mommy never stop you, I believe that, I will being beaten up badly

I don't think I at fault, don't fucking push all the blame towards me

Say what, if I never bath in the room toilet, Chloe won't fall

F.YOU! If fate decided that she will fall, she will !

You can't push all the F.ING BLAME towards me!

PS: I want some peaceful moments

Some feelings don't go away, they just get avoided.
Falling in love its not always a happily-ever-after story. Most of the time, its just a once-upon-a-time story.

Recently the weather is really bad

& my skin is turning worse, whenever I look into the mirror I feel like giving one punch on to it

But still .. I am trying hard to control myself

Having really bad insomnia for the past 2 weeks plus, finally today I can at least had a 8 hours & more of sleep

but still, am feeling tired though :/

没有你在的日子我真的好孤单!

There's so many unspoken thought in me that I feel like telling you

But I know, its better kept unsaid.

Time flies ..

The only I can do now is, cherish what I've now

Life is not easy as what we think it is
I'm single because I'm waiting for the right time in the right place with a right person <3

Awaiting for your return!

Hello Readers ! (:
Insomnia for about 2 weeks, sleepless night & ..

My mood is somehow back todayyy! :D

Working life as usual, but I'm getting even tired each day passes by -.-

Is my mentally tired or physically tired? I don't know.

Well, so let it be (:

1st June !

Time flies, In 13 more days time, someone is enlisted to Police Force

Yeah, which mean, you've got lesser time.

Well, now we are back to friend (:

At least I am feeling much better after days of healing

& feeling even relax than before

Happy as usual ! Yeahyeah!

Hopefully I could really slowly cut down from my night life ! (:
Looking forwards for loads & loads more event
Etc . Chalet ; Genting .. Am maybe going to apply school too !
Update real soon !

PS : I miss you

Loving someone is when you just want the best

for him whether it includes you or not.


Somehow I am missing you so badly
Am having really bad insomnia these few days; I can't stop myself from thinking
I been crying so hard, so badly
& yet ; I am feeling so miserable still

It's can't wash away all my sorrows & pain that bottle inside me
I seriously don't mine giving in for all time
All I ask for is your return
why can't you just fulfill my wish ?

再见了 我的最爱 你真的是我的唯一
我想你 真的很想你 不知道你想我吗
其实我很烦恼 你知道吗 只是你看不到我
我应该等的爱情自己不要再去想念你
为什么我那么爱你 我得不到回报
因为失去那种痛 没有人知道
只有我 一个人才敢着偷哭 你真的好自私呀已经离我而去
我的心真的好痛你感觉得到吗 真想被你知道我是多么的爱你
不要再逃避好吗
我爱你 但也狠狠地可是 我一直珍惜你
放弃你 当我做不到 你知道我难受吗
我一心一意 都是为你 而你却说我们有距离
我应该等的爱情自己不要再去想念你 为什么我那么爱你 我得不到回报
因为失去那种痛 没有人知道只有我一个人 才敢着偷哭
你真的好自私呀已经离我而去 我的心真的好痛 你感觉得到吗
真想被你知道我是多么的爱你 不要再逃避好吗
我恨你自私恨你绝情恨你曾经放弃我 为什么你要我难过
你不肯接受我但是我真的后悔 我留不到你
我伤心 我难过 我哭的更多
你知道那种感觉总是围绕着我 我试过不去想你但我真的难受
我只想告诉你我永远都爱你我却忘记不了你

I can't bare to let you go but still, I can't stop you from leaving

This the decision you choose to

You said you can't bare to hurt me forever so you choose to hurt me now instead

as the pain for me is just for a moment but not for a long period of time

well, maybe that's true

Somehow I just wish to tell you that

can you just think positive?

Look into big picture instead of small one?!

I know you can't let go and you doesn't want to face the stress from others

so you chooses the easier option of letting me go without having to be pressurized by the majority

Well, I respect your decision, I set you free

I'll never be happy without you around to be by my side

I need you, but I know I can't have you

You say if without her & your parent around you would want to marry me now

It's hurt me lots by hearing this!

As you said, being friend you can keep me by your side forever

I'll leave & be your friend back.

Thankyou so much for letting me to have you to be by my side

even if just a short period of time

I cherish every moment with you

you use to be just a simple crush for me, now, I realized I'm in love with you!

I'm sorry, I'm unable to be there for you anymore, but my care are still around

I'm willing to cook for you always

I'll be your listening ear if you need  someone there

I swear that I'd never felt regretted before, you bring lots of fun & laughter in my life

with you around there's nothing for me to fear about

all i wish for is to see you happy always

I'm sorry, but I've got to go

Please do take care of yourself, don't stress anymore when i'm not around to light your way from now on

remember to eat all the time

buy yourself a blanket, don't get cold & down with illness

don't over work yourself with your works and gym

you'll never being push around, you have me still, as I won't leave.

I'll lend you my shoulder when you need it

I'm sorry all I can do I've tried my best to do so

I'll never be a burden to you anymore

I'm sorry to step into your life and bring you so much stress and sadness

I'm sorry, & lastly I love you!

You are still a very special friend towards me, so to you as my only hope too

Stay happy then ! <3

Please do not say sorry to me

I know you've got no time for me, but still I understand

I choose to be with you, I will accepted everything that I need to face

I will never feel regret being with you

As I say, I choose to walk this path, I'll go for it

How I wish I could share your burden with you

But no matter what I'll always be there for you!

I just a simple girl wishing for a faithful boyfriend, I don't ask for much

Can you just understand?

Please don't ask me why, if you love me please hold me tight & don't let me fall

PS: I need you!

Had a day out with Baby! <3

Well, baked egg tarts for baby today, & headed out ..

It's quite a great outing indeed (:

Baby bring me to Marnia Barrage !

Wow! That's a great place seriously, I loved it alot (:

Esp with him around :D

After all, my loved towards you is getting deeper & deeper.

Baby, don't feel sorry towards me

this is the path I choose to walk, I knew I will face difficulties

I don't blame you for being unfair towards me

I blame myself that I am unable to bring you the happiness & a stable home that you wish and craving for

PS : I Love You !

Mommy always scold me stupid

maybe yes, I admit that I am way too soft hearted, maybe you people can just call me stupid

people need me, I'll always be there for them

so when I need someone, none appeared out there!

Am I just thinking too much

or whatever said from mommy is true ?

In this world, only mommy know me best !

Tmrw will be my last day of work at Nielsen !

& I am going to leave this team mates real soon ; I will be missing you people then ! :)

Was thinking should I get a iphone4

Hahaha, shall wait for may then ! :)

Today is a really really busy work day for me

things can't complete, raining heavily !

well, my K1 ex's school mate mother came over to my place to stay over for 2 night

really can't use to it, freaking lack of sleep

which causes me alot of careless mistake during work

but well, tmrw is my last day already, so its alrights then ! :)

PS: Take care people .

Hello All !

Last week of work at Nielsen, I believe that I'll be missing all my colleagues them all :)

7 months here I've learn alot of new stuffs then

Well, recently things just don't go well to me

whatever thing I wish to have, I wanted to have

just don't go my way, my finincial is getting really tight, & yes!

My head is going to burst soon

How long more I need to endure just to get rid of these kinda life style?

I'm seriously tired of it !
Maybe I just need some time, alone ! :/

PS: You will ever know how I feel.

Alrights, I have decided that the time has come for me to move on !

Today I'll be giving my letter to my Boss!

Which mean, I'll be tender today

& my last day of work here is February 25, 2011

Last of all to all my colleagues ~

I appreciate both the opportunites & guidance

I have been given during my employment with the company.

2 more days to valentine !

Guess my valentine would be a { lonely valentine !

Working day some more ..

Stay tune ! <3

Had quite a boring chinese new year for 2011

never really went relative house pai nian, but still, I did enjoy myself with love them all :)

Sometimes, I always realised that, my heart is so contradicting.

I miss you so , & yet I don't know who I really wish for

男人最怕走错房，女人最怕嫁错郎。

super nice show to me :D

It made me cry, such a touching show; & of course it my ANDY LAU show ! Hahahs.

Went movie last night with Jiejie, Jiefu & Jiahui ! :)

Alrights, shall really cut down our night life.

& save up money for our BKK trip ! :)
Hahahs !

Hello peeps! I'm back to blog.

Maybe after sometimes I am going to close down my blog soon?

There's so many memories in this tiny little journal

Or maybe I should actually just private it for sometimes

Somehow I am missing a girl {P}

5 more days to go!

& its 1 fully year, whereby our stories started from

You might not be the one I miss

You might not be the one who hurt me so much

You might not be the one I love the most

But, you are forever the one I can't forget of

Alrights, this a new year, & its a brand new me!

A Work-a-holic, Alcoholic! & a Part-time Student

I am going to work hard & play hard

<3. Lets dance like there's no tomorrow! :)

Come on everybody!

Get prepared! I'm ain't tired, I'm awaiting for more party to go on! ~

Cause we're the PARTY ANIMALS!

HAHAH

PS: I don't need you anymore.

After two days of schooling, I am dead restless then

totally lack of sleep and all -.-

GOSH! I miss you so much ; tell me what can I do?

I keep feel that insecure feeling, how?

Baby Chloe is at my home now! :)

Just love her so much ! <3

Prove that you love me!